Just be

I hate getting flashbacks from things I don't want to remember. For my entire life I always being scared that I will never be able to escape from this disgusted feelings with myself. I was too young and I don't even knew what that bastard did to me. He's a monster, a crazy bastard monster. F*ck him. I was only a child, and that bastard ruined me. I just hope someone was coming to save me at that time... but nobody came. That's more tragic, cause that thing happened in my own house. It's ok, that's not my mistake. That's happened out of my control. See the good news is, now I finally find someone that can save me. It's me, myself can do it. I can trust myself, can hendle and heal it by myself too. For me in the past I just wanna say that "Don't feel guilty for what others did to you honney. Please accept my apologies for blame you before. I love you as much as this world have, little me. I will be the first person to go back to the past and give ...

We mad at each other sometimes. You didn't talk to me the way that i did. Cause if you said something to me it must be about "my life woud be so much better if i didn't have to do all by my self" . And after that I will reply with "well, you have never been fair to me in every single way" . That just almost happend every time! But let me tell you something, that I can never been mad at you. Never! You're the only person that i trust can handle my problems. I know that you were too young when you had me. But please... I don't have best friend, and i wish you could be one . So please be always kind on your silly little girl. Cause I have no one but you. No metter how many times we argue, how many times we don't understand to each other, I always need you. Last, sorry for being childish at you every single time, sorry for being unperfect daughter for you and sorry for all the wrong things I did for you. Don't get old too fast♡ Drldw

Your mind are dramatic! Seriously. Actually your pain doesn't that much as you feel. It's just because your mind have control over your heart . So is it wrong? No. Cause being dramatic is a part of your emotion.  It's ok. Don't deny your feelings. It's normal. You can hear some sh*t from people bout you. It's a critic for you to grow more than you expect. But remember! They don't give a sh*t about you ! At my 20th I learn more that you can't please everyone and their happiness is not your responsibility . I also learn abaout how childish you are when you have been a mature one. You can't feeling apology, and it's f*ck*ng annoying for others. So, I just wanna say that, people don't give a f*ck about you unless you're doing something for them. Sometimes you gotta give up on people . Not because you don't care but they don't. Drldw