I always think about the worst in case i get a bad result . I feel safe and ready when i think about it from the start. Even though bad result is just what i feel and i doubt whether bad is actually bad or it is a medium that will lead me to the good things . I don't know, i just wanna see the positive side. However think about the worst helps me prepare for a plan 'B' . In the last few months i realize that everything i had planned and did in life can't just go smoothly. So cliche, but never mind it's an adult problem. Sometimes i feel lost and confuse. What i wish that i can reach is too hard to reach , or maybe i didn't fight enough for it? or maybe it's just not my path ? or maybe it's just not my passion ? Besides, passion isn't an adult's word. They have to live in reality, and reality refuse something about passion. So the thought always crosses my mind, either i have to fight a losing battle or go for a plan 'B' . I'll...