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Finding a plan 'B' in life


I always think about the worst in case i get a bad result. I feel safe and ready when i think about it from the start. Even though bad result is just what i feel and i doubt whether bad is actually bad or it is a medium that will lead me to the good things. I don't know, i just wanna see the positive side. However think about the worst helps me prepare for a plan 'B'.

In the last few months i realize that everything i had planned and did in life can't just go smoothly. So cliche, but never mind it's an adult problem. Sometimes i feel lost and confuse. What i wish that i can reach is too hard to reach, or maybe i didn't fight enough for it? or maybe it's just not my path? or maybe it's just not my passion? Besides, passion isn't an adult's word. They have to live in reality, and reality refuse something about passion. So the thought always crosses my mind, either i have to fight a losing battle or go for a plan 'B'. 


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Drldw

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